Some of you have asked who Stellan is. Well, I don't actually know him; I only "virtually" know him. Stellan is a miracle baby born to MckMama and Prince Charming. To learn more, read all about it at MckMama's blog.

I have been praying for healing for Stellan and strength for MckMama. Today after catching up on how Stellan is doing, I was having a little conversation with God about the whole thing.

I don't know or understand much of Stellan's medical condition. I know that part of his little heart isn't developed right and that is part of what is causing the problem. I was talking with God I was asking if a new heart (heart transplant) would be an option. In that moment it was like God talked to me out loud. He said He could give Stellan a new heart - in fact a new perfect body.

I have to be honest. As much as the thought of complete healing in heaven is amazing to me, I didn't like God's answer very much for Stellan. I told Him so too. What I want is for the miracle of healing to happen here and now.

God reminded me so patiently that His plan is perfect, complete, and amazing. His love is beyond what I can imagine.

The very thought causes me to sob. How amazing, but yet at the same time, in all my selfishness, I don't anything but TOTAL HEALING ON EARTH for Stellan.

It is so hard to come to grips with all that God is doing.

If you are thinking and praying for Stellan, please consider joining Stellan's name gallery to show you are taking Stellan with you.

And Pray.